DC Lamonts

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

First Day Back to Work

Well maternity leave has come to an end. I went back to work today and left Chase with Kayla, his nanny, and Harley Mae, his new friend in our nanny share.

It was one of the hardest things I've ever done.

If you had asked me in the first 4-6 weeks whether I'd want to stay at home full-time, I would have said "no way." But now it's different. It's not so much that I want to be a stay-at-home mom now as I just hate to leave him. He's get such a great personality and is so adorable. He's funny and silly and strong-willed and inquisitive. And's he's a part of me. We've never been apart for more than 3 hours before. I can't believe I missed everything he did all day, even if it was just eating, pooping, sleeping, and playing. Working means I'm going to miss smiles and laughter and hugs and baby talk and almost rolling over. Worst of all, it means I might miss many of the firsts...

But it was time to get back to work. With the implementation of historical legislation that directly applies to my department, there are a lot of exciting things to work on. I love the work that I do and really like my colleagues. My work is cognitively engaging and important at a large scale. Plus my income is important for our household.

Still, it was pretty miserable to be away from Chase.

So how did he do? He slept A LOT for the nanny- twice as much as he normally does for me--and he didn't eat much. So that's concerning. I'm going to tell her to try to get him to eat more. He ate a lot for Stephen when they got home. But other than that she said he was good and they played and went out for a walk in the afternoon.

At 5:55pm, I came home to this: